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You never said you are leaving,
not even a goodbye..
And before I know, you were already gone,
And only you know why??
..
With each passing night,
an ache begins to build in my chest,
Not letting people know,
I pretend to rest.!!
..
there were Millions of times, When I needed you..
There were Millions of times, When I cried..
.. If you would have let any of us try..
You wouldn't have died.!!
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In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still,
.. You hold that place in my heart.. 
That only you can fill!!
..
Come back If you can,
Just for a Day...
Let me live my life in those moments.. 
And I won't ask you to stay..!!
..
My pillows are tired of hiding the Screams...
the lips are tired of smiling..
The heart is tired of handling the pain,
Just can't do more Hiding!!...
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And.. if you can not come...
Then may be I'll join you there,
That's the only way fair!!